heyyy people!!
i am offically done for
and i am declaring to be suffering from
DEPRESSION
you see, ... is angry with me
so is, ... , ... , ... , ... also
i spent the whole day with yuri
cos those ppl are angry with me
i really really feel like ... ...
i realised that life sucks like hell and its depressing
really really really depressing
its like my whole world is crashing down
and falling apart into thousands and thousands of pieces
if committing suicide wasnt a crime and didnt hurt
i would have been dead months ago
maybe even years ago
i dun feel like blogging right now

message to ... , ... , ... , ... :
i know wat i did wrong
but so wat if i do _____
its not my fault that i do
and if you really treat me as a good friend,
you will accept me for who i am
doing this just shows me that you arent
i am already doing my best trying to change
wat more of me do you want?
i have been like this for my whole life
and you want me to change all of a sudden?
i can but you need to give me some time rite
不可以说改就改
after all i am still a human and so are you
you will also take time to change rite
i am sorry larhh,
i didnt mean to _____
was just too excited
sorry

message to ... :
i seriously dun know why are you angry with me
you said that you arent but you should be
what does that mean
and you keep saying that you are not angry
but you make it so obvious that you are
evrytime i talk to you
you ignore me and walk away
i really dun understand
i am lost
really really lost and depressed
i told you before
i get real depressed when you are angry with me
literally angry
not like that time the joking joking kind
i really dun know wat i did wrong to hurt you